Someone to fall back on

It's been five months since I posted anything, and I still have nothing coherent to say except that I've been listening to this acapella cover of 'Landslide' an awful lot in the last few days.

Home safe, though kind of exhausted. Why do holidays have to end?

And a meme, stolen from seajules:

Put your music player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first song is the title.
(English songs only, because I'm not up to translating most of the other languages!

And finally the silence
Heard you today, that isn't my name, you were fast asleep.
I was born in a forked-tongued story,
And even though the moment passed me by,
When it hurts too much to pretend,
Tonight I'm so alone.

The last time I saw you, you turned away.
The sidewalk bends where your house ends.
He and I had something beautiful;
Am I alone in this?
Black fingernails, red wine.

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing,
I need to know if you were real.
Strokes of dark, a brush of light,
You, you got me,
Sweeping up plaster.

Good morning sun,
Hello, hello.
Well, I’m looking for an old soul.
Someone is waiting,
I'm driving to your house.

The melancholy women issue?


Hope Alone - Indigo Girls
Let's not drag this out, everything's in motion
Though I've only ever loved you kind and with devotion
I remember when I met you and even from the start
I thought one day you'd probably just come home and break my heart

Letting You Go - Lauren Kennedy
Changing the lock
Turning the key
Letting you go away from me.
Knowing it’s better
Here in my head

Unplayed Piano - Damien Rice & Lisa Hannigan
Unplayed pianos
Are often by a window
In a room where nobody loved goes

Icarus Wind - Thea Gilmore
It’s the Icarus wind whispering in my ear
It’s the Icarus wind dusting away those tears
Singing, baby the truth is that this won’t hurt at all
Soon there’ll just be feathers and the quiet of the fall

Recessional - Vienna Teng (m4a)
Fluorescent announcements beat their wings overhead:
"Passengers missing, we're looking for you."
And she dreams through the noise, her weight against me,
Face pressed into the corduroy grooves.

Maybe it means nothing, maybe it means nothing,
Maybe it means nothing, but I'm afraid to move.

sunfever. Again.

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post that to your journal with these instructions.

The Fray - The Great Beyond
Alison Krauss - Ghost In This House
Nickel Creek - Green and Gray
Cobra Starship - Guilty Pleasure
The Wallflowers - God Says Nothing Back

Random five, from iTunes on shuffle.


Aitai - Younha
(Japanese)

Blue And Yellow - The Used

Baby Baby - JJ Lin
(Mandarin)

Hurricane - Eric Benet

Kya Mujhe Pyaar Hai - Kay Kay
(Hindi)

Music from the playlist a particular muse had me put together the other night.


Ever Fallen In Love - Thea Gilmore
Cover of the Buzzcocks original.
And I'm hurt / And if I start a commotion / I run the risk of losing you / And that's worse

Inevitable - Anberlin
Amazing how life turns out the way that it does / We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love

Yours To Hold - Skillet
I wonder why you've been hurting / I wish I had some way to say / You're going through so much / Don't you know that I could be the one to hold you

First Love - Utada Hikaru
(Translation by kyuuketsukirui, and I hope she won't mind the appropriation.)
You will always be inside my heart / There's always a place just for you / I hope that I have a place in your heart, too / Now and forever you are still the one

Ashes & Wine - A Fine Frenzy
Shut it out / I've got no claim on you now / Not allowed to wear your freedom down / Is there a chance? / A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?

Songs about/for driving to:

Where No-One Knows Me - Jann Arden
Got my hands on the wheel, got my foot on the pedal / Gonna drive til I drop, til the tires turn to metal

Another White Dash - Butterfly Boucher
Something about having everything / You think you'll ever need / Sitting in the seat next to you

Sweeter Than This - Katie Herzig
Life is boxes in back of our car, / Driving around with the dreams in a jar

Shasta (Carrie's Song) - Vienna Teng
And you're thinking about clouds the color of fire / And the scent of an orange peel / The way Mt. Shasta explodes into windshield view / And your hands steady on the wheel

Drive - DBSK

Late music this week. Here're the 10 songs I uploaded for the iTunes meme.

1. Don't Look In Their Eyes - Stabilo
and never, nevermind these awful cries / it's not as real if you don't look in their eyes

2. You're My Miracle (Japanese Version) - DBSK

3. Gamble Everything For Love - Ben Lee
I think I uploaded this song before, but here it is just in case.
Make a list of things you need, leave it empty / Except for number one, write “love”, gamble everything

4. Heart - Stars
Time can take its toll on the best of us / Look at you you're growing old so young,

5. Bleeding Out - Dishwalla
Do you know just what it's like to burn inside so often? / To see the life you give is not in vain and not forgotten

6. Homecoming (Walter's Song) - Vienna Teng
Well we all write our own endings / And we all have our own scars / But tonight I think I see what it's all about

7. Cover Me - Thea Gilmore
Promise me baby you won't let them find us / Hold me in your arms, let's let our love blind us

8. Say (All I Need) - OneRepublic
Do you know where your heart is / Do you think you can find it / Did you trade it for something, somewhere

9. Satellite News - Feeder
I wanna lift myself up to the sky / Serenade the stars as I pass by / Wanna leave it all just for a while

10. Oyasumi, Mata Ashita - Aluto
Goodnight, see you tomorrow!

Vaguely themed around almosts and in-betweens:

Fool - bôa
The English band, not the Korean woman. It's probably unnecessary to explain why I identify so strongly with parts of this.
I was born and raised / As an eastern girl in a western world

Redwing - Hem
This one makes me think about the space between childhood and adolesence, for some reason.
But I don't want to still believe in / The gravity of solid ground

Good Bye, Good Luck - Nan Quan Mama
Mandarin. I have no idea what they're really singing about, but it feels like learning to let go.

Love The One You're With - Suemitsu and the Suemith
Japanese man with piano covers 1970s folk. And I really like it.
And if you can't be with the one you love / Honey, love the one you're with

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
Sweet and wistful. Also, true.
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy / I thought you'd want the same for me

Because I'm going to be away on Friday, a semi-valentine's music post. With, uh, some very odd love songs.


Razor Valentine - Thea Gilmore
The love song for me.
I love you like a drunk / At the sound of closing time / I love you as the seconds on my tongue /Are running wild / I love you razor valentine.

Spoken - September
Finally found an mp3 version; also a love song, of sorts.
Tonight I am standing with you / A chance to change the world as we know it

I Love You - Changmin
Not the showcase version, for those of you who know it. This is 30 seconds of acapella, with a special bonus of Jaejoong saying 'I love you too, eh?' in his best mafioso voice. I have no idea.

Blue Caravan - Vienna Teng
The love stories we tell ourselves.
For my true love is a man / Who never existed at all / Oh he was a beautiful fiction / I invented to keep out the cold

Cold Tea Blues - Cowboy Junkies
For me, tea is love. (Lyrics below, but really it's not the lyrics, it's the emotion.)
If I stop there, claiming ignorance of taste, / That is tea. / But if I measure the sugar / To satisfy your expectant tongue / Then that is love